Within 5 hours of the first session to this track, I wanted to write a song based off of what I've been feeling a lot the last half-decade. And I said to myself that I have been wanting to write this song, for at least a year now. But because I have always, with this song, been building up expectations in my head in terms of how the song should be, how it should sound: radio-friendly, a solid hook, super melodious, fit in with fun music, danceable both on a summer day and in the rain yada yada. And I am tedious at melodies etc, I am mostly used to writing abstract complex lyricism tings. But after a year where I hadn't written a word to this song (again, because of expectations), and me not fully knowing what it should be about, I had noted some specific topics that I wanted to make radio-friendly catchy songs around, and one of them was to be ghosted. Skip to the third paragraph.

So me and Max ran with that, and then we took inspiration from how the song should be written. We listened to other tunes from Justin Timberlake, Chris Brown, Michael Jackson etc, and then we arranged our pieces together. Within four hours, we got a hook and somewhat of a beat. Then I entered the studio maybe 2-3 times within the next two months, where I came with the artistic inputs to musical and lyrical changes and whatnot. So on the third or fourth session, the song was done. And I never would've thought of it. On top of that, he offered coffee and such. And then in late March, the song was completely done with engineering and stuff.

Ghost II You, lyrically, is drawn from many experiences I have had in society, of people I have met and started bonding with very potently (at least what I thought), a relationship/friendship, but suddenly, outta nowhere, they quit replying to me, talking to me, call me, picking up the phone when I call 'em, greeting me if I cross paths. And this can be difficult to tell (no pun intended), I indeed, get very depressed when something like that happens, since I also suffer from RSD (Rejection Sensitivity Disorder). A lot of autists have it, a lot of aspies have it. So that is really something that strikes very deep with me; to be rejected, straight up. If somebody doesn't want to conversate with me or anything then say "I don't want anything to do with you or anything", done, fine, have a nice life. But in context of just disappearing, or not giving a call, and there hasn't been any sign of such, plus you have build an emotional relationship with that person (where the other one even has explicitly said "I hope our friendship never abruptly ends") etc, that is where it hits me the hardest. Because if it's only been a few hi's, and small talk questions here and there it's not as much. But if you actually go full personal, talk about different stuff that are near and dear to you and I do the same, and it just ends - that is where I have had a lot of mental breakdowns.

And I won't go into details here, but for multiple reasons, I came to the eventuel idea of writing a song about it. Obviously, writing and recording a track about it isn't gonna solve the problem or make it go away, and it is at the end of the day just a radio-friendly R&B cut, it's still a type of coping to put it out on wax. So that's why I chose to do such. It has actually been nothing short of a pleasure that somebody is reaching out and saying "wow, it's a great song", "oh, I cannot get this hook outta my head", so maybe I ain't a ghost anymore. At least not to the homie who I made the music video with during the summer 2022, and he contacted me about it like a year after we had spoken. Now that feels different when somebody reaches out and cares, since saying hi doesn't cost a dime.

Yet generally, it is a veeery depressing proces when it comes to being ghosted, and I don't know what to do. I still don't know how to handle the situation, so it still very much hits me. But that was definitely enough reason for me to write Ghost II You.
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